Finding Balance

Since the holidays, I’ve been feeling off kilter. Not the normal post holiday blues. This one has been hitting a little more each day.

To say this month has had it’s twists and turns would be an understatement. Through all the things that seem to be coming this way, I realize that now is the best time to start implementing my best yes.

I knew there was a reason for that book.

The word I was given this year was self. Walking into it I thought I knew what it meant. In my mind, it meant getting in shape, eating better, getting into a better groove with my quiet time, rediscovering passions and hobbies. All good things.

I’m learning that this season is going to be one of evaluating. What have I said yes to that, while essentially good, isn’t a yes I need to follow. What things do I, at least for a season, need to give up. Where have I over committed myself? How does saying yes to _________ impact my well being? My family.

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This season won’t be an easy one. I like to say yes to things that interest me, but I need to say no, or not now, to some things. That is okay. It’s more than okay, it’s great.

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This year, my word is self. The more I think about it, the more I discuss it with others, I need to focus as much on my family as I do myself. I need to learn to say no to things that will take too much time away from them.

While still focusing on becoming a healthier me, I also need to make an effort to be a healthier family. Spend time with the amazing husband I’ve been blessed with. Play with and teach our too-smart-for-his-age two year old. Family nights. Date nights. Me night. All these things play into rediscovering self.

How has your new year shaped up so far?

Welcoming in 2015

I shared a couple days ago about my one word for 2015. While mulling over exactly how rediscovering myself should look a couple things came to mind. The first was a song. A song I know I’ve shared here before. The lyrics of this song were once again brought to my attention on the 28th:

"The Real Me" by Natalie Grant. Listen here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4bRGfId9quY

“The Real Me” by Natalie Grant. Listen here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4bRGfId9quY

Even though this song was written to help the artist with a very real struggle with bulimia, I believe that so many of us can relate to the struggle of just wanting to find ourselves outside of our circumstance. That’s the beauty of music, the words can impact so many people in different ways.

Along with this song, there was something else that came into my mind. Scripture. One I’d become very much  familiar with several years back. In fact, it’s been the focus of several books I’ve read over the last several years. However, this time, it’s come to life so much more.

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These two tools, combined with the focus of rediscovering what self means to me, are sure to help. A few other steps I’m planning to take on this journey:

  • Set a consistent time to wake up each morning
    • enough time for breakfast and quiet time
  • Discover a way to become more active and stick to it
  • Write consistently. Either here or in a journal I received for Christmas
  • Read books. All the way to the end.
  • Take time monthly (more frequently if needed) and do something to refresh myself
  • Crochet again
  • Make girl time a must

Do you have any goals for this year? Any hopes and dreams that are beginning to take shape?

New Year, New me

The past several years I have participated in the One Word challenge. Having a focus for each year has helped in many ways. I started fully participating in it in 2012 with the word limitless. Boy did that year sure live up to it it too. In 2013 the central focus for the year was trust. With motherhood just beginning, trust was going to be essential for that first year. This year’s word came to me in the form of a gift from a coworker. The word in 2014 was magnificent.

This year has had it’s ups and downs. I can tell you that there were many times when it wasn’t feeling so magnificent. However, when I look back at where we were when the year started, I can see that it was indeed magnificent. From career changes, to parenthood, friendships and everything in between, it has most certainly been magnificent.

A few days ago, I was contemplating whether or not I was going to participate in the one word challenge again in 2015. I was leaning toward no. Then, as I’m sitting at home it hits me. In 2015 the one thing I need to focus on is self. With the baby phase behind us, it’s time to focus on getting myself healthier. In all areas of life. It’s time for me to buckle down more and get serious with my quiet time. I need to quit making excuses to get healthier, there is no better time than now to begin eating better and living a more active life.

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I really need to take a close look at how I’m spending my time. I want to become me again. I’m not just a wife, a mom, a friend, ect. There is more to it than just the things I do or the way I spend my time. I want to find my hobbies and passions again. I want to crochet again, to write here more often, to learn to love life all around again. I am going to make an effort this year to do just that.

How about you, friends, what is your word for 2015?

How are we doing? {CMA}

Last week, I posted about striving to be content in the circumstances I am in. As Satan loves to do, that is the area he’s slammed into that very area of my life. I’d love to be able to say I’ve been able to combat his attacks successfully, but I haven’t.

I have tried to steer my thoughts in directions that wouldn’t lead to a breakdown, but if I’m honest, I’ve broken down at least 3 times this week. Almost all of them surrounding work in general. That I have to work. The stress I get from my current position. Not liking the shift I’m working. Dreams that I have, that need to be placed on hold for a while. I could go on and on.

I have been able to slow down some. Enjoy the few mornings that Andrew is actually awake before I have to leave for work. I have made some time together with Kevin, not daily, but definitely over the weekend. As well as finding the time to physically rest on days following sleepless nights.

So, this week, I am continuing on this challenge for myself. While doing so, I will be taking the time to stop and pray when I feel overwhelmed. Seek for peace in His presence. Look for His direction and reassurances that I am on the right path.

Each morning, I will work towards living in the moment. To loving the life I have been given. To seeking shelter in the safest Place I can find. Writing out my thoughts, feelings, emotions to get them down and not allow them to run me down.

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So friend, how are you doing on the goals and dreams you have for your life? I’d love to hear your heart as well.

Another year gone

Has another year come and gone already? 2012 held a lot, I mean a lot, of heart ache. For myself, my family and countless others in my circle. From miscarriages, to loss of loved ones (both expected and spontaneous), to fractured relationships, to heartbreak of all sorts. Despite all that, there was an incredible journey going on within me. Not just the one that lead up to our precious baby boy, but a journey that has begun to transform me.

Inside and Out

You know those prayers, those dangerous prayers that scares the dickens out of us to pray? The ones that everyone warns against praying? Yeah, me too. Let’s say 2012 held many of those prayers in my life. While the answers that came to them were scary, the answers brought about a beauty that one could have never have dreamed about.

If you were around for the journey the past year, let me say this: THANK YOUYour prayers, love, support and encouragement was and is more appreciated than I can even begin to explain. I love each and every one of you so much. 2013 has some great stuff in store, I’d be so blessed to have you continue this journey with me.

If you’re newer around here welcome and thank you for stopping by! I would encourage you to go back and read up on some of the posts from last year. The ones on my one word “limitless” from last year contain most of the big events from the past year.

With all the progress made last year, there’s still a lot left to be done. Particularly in one area. That area is trust. I went into a little more of that in this post describing my word for this year.

As I venture out to learn how trust is going to grow within me, I hope that each of you will help me through this journey. I don’t expect it to be easy. I don’t expect it to happen completely over night…or even come near completion this year, but I know it will be a good start. A start of a freeing journey.

I pray you’ll join me.

One Word 2013

The other day, I shared that this year isn’t a typical year. While I have some goals in mind that I would like to make progress on, I don’t have any traditional resolutions.

There is one new years thing that I joined in with last year that I loved. That would be choosing one word. One word to reach out and grasp a better concept of. One word to challenge myself to live up to, in a way.  Last year, that word was limitless. It was quite a journey. Here are a few snippets from that journey.

This year the word for me is:

With all the challenges, changes, and learning curves that are bound to come my way in the next year, trust is going to be key for keeping my eyes where they need to be. Trust is what will keep me from spinning out of control when uncertainties, insecurities, and fear tries to knock me down.

Trust is to believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of something or someone. Trust is a huge area of struggle in my life. It doesn’t matter what or where the trust is to be placed, I almost always have a hard time allowing myself to even attempt to trust.

Ginny Owens – If You Want Me To
This song is one I’ve known for a long time and just rediscovered. I really think that this song will be key to help me refocus on trusting His way for me, my marriage and my family.

I have also chosen a verse to go with this word. To challenge me. To memorize. To help me remember to always trust Him above all. The verse is Psalm 31:14:

“But as for me, I trust in You, oh Lord, I say, “You are my God.”

Tell me friends…have you chosen a word, phrase, song, verse to help challenge you into a more consistent walk with our Creator? If so, please share.