How are we doing? {CMA}

Last week, I posted about striving to be content in the circumstances I am in. As Satan loves to do, that is the area he’s slammed into that very area of my life. I’d love to be able to say I’ve been able to combat his attacks successfully, but I haven’t.

I have tried to steer my thoughts in directions that wouldn’t lead to a breakdown, but if I’m honest, I’ve broken down at least 3 times this week. Almost all of them surrounding work in general. That I have to work. The stress I get from my current position. Not liking the shift I’m working. Dreams that I have, that need to be placed on hold for a while. I could go on and on.

I have been able to slow down some. Enjoy the few mornings that Andrew is actually awake before I have to leave for work. I have made some time together with Kevin, not daily, but definitely over the weekend. As well as finding the time to physically rest on days following sleepless nights.

So, this week, I am continuing on this challenge for myself. While doing so, I will be taking the time to stop and pray when I feel overwhelmed. Seek for peace in His presence. Look for His direction and reassurances that I am on the right path.

Each morning, I will work towards living in the moment. To loving the life I have been given. To seeking shelter in the safest Place I can find. Writing out my thoughts, feelings, emotions to get them down and not allow them to run me down.

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So friend, how are you doing on the goals and dreams you have for your life? I’d love to hear your heart as well.

Contentment {CMA}

Our weekly Count Me Accountable link up is all about living a healthier life. Lately, I’ve set out with some great goals, written with determination, at least one each week. All with the hope of getting back on track. To living a healthier life. To improving myself for the benefit of myself. For the benefit of my husband. For the benefit of my son. For the benefit of every person I love.

Then it dawned on me this week. Rather He revealed to me. Before I can build upon my life to improve it, I need to be happy with my life. I need to rediscover myself. I need to learn to be content with who I am. To find peace within the situation I am in. To find the joy of being where I am at. To living in the moment. Without worries of what I should be doing. Where I should be heading. How I want to look. The size I want to be. And so on.

So my goal is to allow life to slow down  a little. To enjoy each and every phase my son is in without wondering when the sleep will come. Without desiring him to be able to do this or that. I want to enjoy this time with my family. To make and cherish the time with Kevin. To make time with him a priority over anything else that longs to take it.

Friends, it’s time. It’s time for me to live and love this life. Rather than trying to make it better. After all, I need to be happy with where I am. Before, when I was improving myself it was because I was happy. Because I was content. Because I was secure in who I was, where I was, despite all the chaos that was going on around me.

Now, with the challenges of being a first time mom, with all the change that comes with a new job for Kevin, plus the factor of not liking the fact that we work different shifts, I’m in the place I want to be. Mentally. Emotionally. Spiritually.

I love my family and I want to be all there when I’m with them. So that’s the place I’m going to start. After all, who wouldn’t want to spend as much time with these guys as possible.

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Focus: H2O {CMA}

Here we are for another beloved count me accountable post. I’ll be linking up over with the fantastic ladies at Must Love God. We’d love to have you.

If you couldn’t tell, this post is all about water. Not just physical water but spiritual water as well.

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My goal is to drink at least 2, if not 3 of these bottles a day BEFORE drinking anything else. I do this in hopes of limiting the amount of calories I drink. I want to focus on changing this habit first because I believe it is the best foundation to have. If I am able to keep myself from drinking junk then it will make it easier to keep myself from eating junk later on.

Just like physical water is the foundation of physical life. There is a spiritual water that I believe to be the foundation of a healthy spiritual life.

What is this spiritual water? The Word that was given to us straight from God. Without “drinking” enough of this water each day, it is extremely hard to maintain a healthy, vibrant, growing relationship with God.

So, just as I’m striving to incorporate more physical water into my daily life, I will also be striving to incorporate more spiritual water into my daily life.

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what are your goals to become a more balanced, more healthy person this week?

New year, refreshed goals {CMA}

Well friends, it’s that time again. We’re restarting Count Me Accountable with a link-up at MustLoveGod. Every Thursday a group of us write about the ways we want to better our lives. Not only that but we list specific goals, and weekly we update each other on what’s going on. We’d love to have you join us (just follow the link above).

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Count Me Accountable. As much as I loathe it. I have also come to love it. So off I go.

All of my adolescence and adult life thus far has been spent being overweight, constantly tired, and completely insecure. After getting off to a great start by changing my eating habits and walking at least 3 days a week, I was able to go from 190 down to 174 from the start of January through the end of March. This was astronomical for me. As I had never been able to find an effective way to lose the excess weight and keep it off.

This, however, was when the game had to change for me. Two days after posting this lowest weight, I took a test. A life changing test. Two days after this milestone, I discovered that some bigger changes were taking place. I discovered that I was pregnant. I had to focus more on mental, emotional and spiritual more so than the weight side of physical.

This year, I feel like I’m starting new. I weighed in this morning at 179lbs. I am proud of this though. It would have been extremely easy to just have not cared, and gained a large amount of weight through the journey that is pregnancy. Without this community, that would have been exactly what I would have done.

My plan was to go back to my eating habits from before. This was supposed to start this past Monday. That didn’t happen quite as easily as I hoped. However, I have drastically cut back, almost completely eliminated pop and other sugary drinks, as well as candy and other sugars.

My plan is to completely eliminate all the sugary drinks and the sugar-filled foods by February 1st. After that, I will see where I am at, and evaluate what needs to go next.

Next week, we’ll dig into the other areas that I’m going to be working on improving. The spiritual side which is going to be the most important for me in this journey of motherhood, let alone life. As well as the Emotional and mental goals I have. Which, if the spiritual goals are in line, the other ones should fall into place naturally.

So friends, I ask, are you in?

Have you ever…

…had a period of time when there’s this song. One song. That you can’t get out of your mind?

If you know me at all, you know it happens to me quite often. In fact…there’s been one song in particular that has been on my mind lately… especially as the start of the new year rolls around.

To see what it is and why…join me today over at mustlovegod.net

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Sweet Grace {CMA}

This past week has been sooo full of ups and downs. Emotional highs and emotional lows. Some steps forward, some steps back.

With all the emotional ups and downs comes a lonliness. Not by anyone else’s doing, but by my own. Afraid to reach out too much, and risking the feeling of being too needy. But at the same time, so desperately longing for the connection in hopes that it will help the cycle.

Does anyone else out there feel like they’re just going around and around in circles? Making progress in some areas while back sliding in others?

Yeah, I’m there too… 

Last week I posted on growing limitlessly, and unfortunately I can’t say it’s felt like I’ve been succeeding at doing  so.

I realized this week that the whole “maintaining activeness”…well yeah, that hasn’t happened like I was hoping. While most days work keeps me active, I don’t make the effort to continue being on my feet and moving when at home.

When it comes to emotional and mental health, I’ve had more bad days than good days with this. Raging hormones has made it hard for me several days this week. Between breakdowns for over absolute nothing, being uber sensitive, and getting very, very, very worn out due to a couple stressful weeks at work, those three combined have made living healthy in both emotional and mental states lately.

Spiritually I haven’t quite found something that works for me…not just yet. I have looked into a few different options for me, and started something today that I’m hoping will work well.

So this week, I feel like I’ve backslid more than I’ve gone forward.
So this week, I am extremely thankful for the grace He gives.
So this week I am thankful for John 1:16-17:

For of His fullness we have all received, and grace upon grace. For the Law was given through Moses; grace and truth were realized through Jesus Christ.

 Had it not been for the law that Moses gave, we wouldn’t understand how desperately we need the grace that came through Christ’s sacrifice on the cross.**

With that said, this week I will cling to grace when I fail rather than stewing on the failures. I will do as Cassie says I will stop looking at the big picture, and start taking things one bite at a time. Will you join us?

On Thursdays, we join together to help each other stay accountable for our goals.

So how is your week going?  Have you been living purposefully?

We invite you to join with us in community, finding accountability for all types of things.  Are you struggling in specific areas or just in general need someone to cheer for you?

Let us know how you’re doing…by either linking up a post from your blog or simply leaving a comment!!!
(Click on link above to link up with us!)

It’s been too long

Sad to say, it’s been almost a month (to the day) since I’ve check in with my weight. If you remember, last month, I wrote Five Minute February. Since that series, unfortunately I have had a lot of life happen and because  of those circumstances, I allowed my healthy eating to take a back seat.

Although I didn’t gain more than four pounds (which in and of itself is a miracle) I haven’t been able to get back down to where I was before, just yet. Not without the help of this community. Without the help of my friends whom I’ve come to cherish.

Last time I checked in, I weighed 172. Today, I have to admit, I’m at 173.5. Which means I’ve lost 2.5 pounds from my highest weight since the last time I checked in, which is a start. A good start.

Today, I’m over here talking about how life can easily complicate our commitment and ways to overcome said challenges. Would you join in our conversation there? Take the challenge to get serious about living a healthy life with us?