The Reluctant Journey

I’ve been involved in this wonderful community for over a year now. JustĀ  when I contemplated if this was really where God wanted me to continue studying the next study was revealed.


As soon as I saw it, my spirit connected to it. I knew I had to join my P31 OBS sisters through this one. Even though it doesn’t start until the end of June.

I’ve had the book for a week now. Hesitant to start reading. The snippets I’ve seen so far are powerful. This book radiates the wreckage that awaits.

A beautiful wreckage. The type that heals. The type that challenges. The type that grows. The type that encourages.

Wreckage that’s sure to sweeten even the most painful of places within.

The journey to being wrecked for Him is what brings the hesitancy. I want to feel again. I want to experience a deeper understanding for Him. A passion I’ve not had before.

So, I will choose to start this journey. With an open mind and heart. I will obediently follow His call upon my heart to allow this book to wreck me.

For His greatest work is done in my wrecked state.

When music speaks

Laying here. Struggling. In many ways.

Prompted I get up. Find my head phones. Turn on music.

Quickly the tears come. The prayers start. The promises in the words sink in.

The titles of the songs speak. The lyrics both challenge and heal.

It’s been a rough few months. Currently in the in between. Waiting for answers.

Coming alongside and celebrating with others when life is racing forward. All while feeling as though yours is standing still.

The pain that comes and go. Reminds of the road I’m on. A scary, isolating road.

Just when it feels all is settling, peace begins to envelope, that’s when something hits. Something that rocks the core. It comes in the most unseen way. At the most unexpected time.

Now it’s clinging to those promises that are being ushered into the soul. The ones learned at a young age. Because they hold true even now.

For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the Lord , ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Jer 29:11

“I know that You can do all things, And that no purpose of Yours can be thwarted. Job 42:2

To fully believe His dreams for me are better than my own. My head knows it. My heart needs to follow.

For now I’ll take it step by step. Day by day. Trusting that His plan will blow me away. All while relishing in the abundant blessings He’s already gifted to me.

This song is what He’s calling me to.