Contentment {CMA}

Our weekly Count Me Accountable link up is all about living a healthier life. Lately, I’ve set out with some great goals, written with determination, at least one each week. All with the hope of getting back on track. To living a healthier life. To improving myself for the benefit of myself. For the benefit of my husband. For the benefit of my son. For the benefit of every person I love.

Then it dawned on me this week. Rather He revealed to me. Before I can build upon my life to improve it, I need to be happy with my life. I need to rediscover myself. I need to learn to be content with who I am. To find peace within the situation I am in. To find the joy of being where I am at. To living in the moment. Without worries of what I should be doing. Where I should be heading. How I want to look. The size I want to be. And so on.

So my goal is to allow life to slow down  a little. To enjoy each and every phase my son is in without wondering when the sleep will come. Without desiring him to be able to do this or that. I want to enjoy this time with my family. To make and cherish the time with Kevin. To make time with him a priority over anything else that longs to take it.

Friends, it’s time. It’s time for me to live and love this life. Rather than trying to make it better. After all, I need to be happy with where I am. Before, when I was improving myself it was because I was happy. Because I was content. Because I was secure in who I was, where I was, despite all the chaos that was going on around me.

Now, with the challenges of being a first time mom, with all the change that comes with a new job for Kevin, plus the factor of not liking the fact that we work different shifts, I’m in the place I want to be. Mentally. Emotionally. Spiritually.

I love my family and I want to be all there when I’m with them. So that’s the place I’m going to start. After all, who wouldn’t want to spend as much time with these guys as possible.

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Today marks…

Three months since our little man was born. I’m absolutely enjoying being a mom. As each day goes by I’m falling harder and harder for our son. I love when he “holds my hand” (aka finger) while he’s sucking down a bottle. The way he smiles when I attack his cheeks with kisses. How he talks to his papa almost every time he sees him. When he laughs with daddy. How he giggles and gets super excited while playing on his play mat.

I love all of this. But it’s getting harder and harder. Harder and harder to say goodbye to go to work. Harder and harder to enjoy working when in the depths of my heart I want to be with him more. To see each step of his progress firsthand.

I believe that one day the need for me to work out of the house full time will come to an end. That one day the longing I have to be a mom who’s with her child(ren) more than she is away from them. That one day, even if I can’t be a full time SAHM, I will be able to go to something part time. Or better yet, something I can do from home.

I love that little guy and I am confident that those who have him while I work love him as well. And I’m sure that he enjoys his time with them as much as they enjoy theirs with him. There’s still that ache within. The age that draws me to be at home with him.

Soon it will be time to look. Look into something that has more favorable hours. With the start of a good job for the hubs this week, I know I need to find something that will coordinate well with his job.

The other day, talking to a friend who has a daughter that is 4 days older than little man, I made an observation. Our little ones are a quarter of the way through their first year. It made it seem so long. Yet so short at the same time.

A quarter of a year. It’s so hard to believe. That short amount of time has changed our lives forever. That amount of time has brought closeness to relationships that had long since been strained.

In three months dreams have intensified. In three months priorities have changed. In three months life has reshape. In three months you have changed in many ways. In three months growth from everyone around has skyrocketed.

It’s only been three months. A quarter of a year. A tiny fraction of time. In which great things have been started.

Saturday sentiment

Saturdays are my days to relax. The day to spend some time with those I love most. Today I reflect on the past couple weeks.

They’ve been hard. For reasons I really can’t identify. Maybe it’s the lack of consistent sleep finally catching up with me. Maybe it’s the waiting for a new page to turn for us (which is happening on Monday). Maybe it’s the craziness that’s going on at work.

Honestly, I’m almost certain it’s all of these things at the same time that’s seemed to have brought a cloud of smog around me.

So if it continues to be quiet around here, just know it’s because I’m still trying to figure out what my new normal is. Trying to figure out how to re-balance everything so that I have the most to give to everyone I encounter-whether in person or here online.

I will be trying to establish at least a weekly post but thank you for your grace if it takes some time to get into that groove.

Focus: H2O {CMA}

Here we are for another beloved count me accountable post. I’ll be linking up over with the fantastic ladies at Must Love God. We’d love to have you.

If you couldn’t tell, this post is all about water. Not just physical water but spiritual water as well.

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My goal is to drink at least 2, if not 3 of these bottles a day BEFORE drinking anything else. I do this in hopes of limiting the amount of calories I drink. I want to focus on changing this habit first because I believe it is the best foundation to have. If I am able to keep myself from drinking junk then it will make it easier to keep myself from eating junk later on.

Just like physical water is the foundation of physical life. There is a spiritual water that I believe to be the foundation of a healthy spiritual life.

What is this spiritual water? The Word that was given to us straight from God. Without “drinking” enough of this water each day, it is extremely hard to maintain a healthy, vibrant, growing relationship with God.

So, just as I’m striving to incorporate more physical water into my daily life, I will also be striving to incorporate more spiritual water into my daily life.

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what are your goals to become a more balanced, more healthy person this week?