Yesterday marked 16 weeks into this life long journey. I will have my next appointment and will be 4 weeks out from the all telling ultrasound. The information that I didn’t want to initially know. The ultrasound to discover if we will have a son or a daughter come December. This also means we are 4 weeks away from the half-way point…seems unreal.
During these next several months I have a lot, I mean a lot, of growing to do in all areas: Physically-to better support the growing of our little one. Emotionally-attempting to learn not to give into the hormonal jumps that come along with pregnancy. Mentally-hopefully learning how to navigate this journey without totally losing a sense of self…or my mind (which some would say it was already too late for that one, haha). Spiritually-in these times of ups and downs I need to relearn why my constant walking with my God is so vital.
My goals for the physical aspect of life still haven’t changed a whole lot. I am still trying to eat the healthier choices. As I know that will be not only what’s best for me in the long run, but also it is what helps ensure a strong, healthy little one. I still try to be active, but not to the same extent I was before. I’m doing more maintaining activeness then “lets lose this weight” activeness…no that will come back after Christmas.
The goals for emotional/mental well being are both being aware of my mental/emotional/hormonal state in order to avoid melt downs and/or blow ups. As well as admitting when I had one and apologizing for snapping on any one (this may or may not have happened a few times already). Also to watch my patience level while at work. I’ve been finding myself more and more agitated, not completely sure why, at the continual, day-in-day-out monotony that my job can be some days.
Now for the spiritual. This has been the goal I’ve been most lacking in. I think in the first trimester I used exhaustion as an excuse…a lot. I have started several quiet time studies in the past couple months but haven’t followed through with them. My hope/plan/goal is to start and finish a Women of Faith study on God’s love. I figured the best place to find examples of exactly what unconditional love looks like is to study the One who showed the ultimate display of love…right?