Today’s post marks 5 days left in the month. Which means 5 days left in….
You can go here, to find a list of all the posts. Today I’m linking up with Lisa-Jo. Their word is grit. My word today is Security.
Security. Such a fickle thing in today’s world. It, for sure, is one of my biggest struggles. Finding security in my identity as a child of the Most High God has always been hard for me. While I’m making progress, the battle is still hard most days.
My search for security started at a very young age. I shared some of the reasons why the other day. Growing up in an unstable environment, it is hard for a person like me to have had security from a young age.
Insecurity runs rampant in my mind most days. If I’m not careful it can consume and control me. When I am diligent, on the defense looking for it, the falls aren’t as hard.
Being the 4th kid in a family of 5 kids makes me a middle child. Middlee children are notorious for struggling with their identity and security. I also have the mentality of an oldest child as well. Which just makes this search for identity and security that much harder. While I have the mind of an oldest some days, I have the heart of a middle child, a very emotional middle child at that.
It wasn’t until I turned to God and what He has to say about me that I found the roots of my insecurities. Until I was able to start to overcome them.