I’ve come to a road block…at work. It’s hard being (1) the only dedicated Christ follower, (2) raised with a different perspective on things, and (3) continue to stand for what I believe is right.
I’ve been at my place of employment for just over 6 months. Starting (officially) this week I am now a full-time associate working 1p to 9p Monday through Friday instead of only working 8a to 8p on Saturday and Sunday. I started filling in the open spot last week (for the most part) and it went all right. This week, however, not the same story.
I’ve been finding it extremely difficult to succeed in the three things I listed above. While I am succeeding, I am not enjoying the work as much as I did before. I highly doubt that it’s because I see the clientele more, but because of a particular associate I see more often. Up until this point she ran the shift. The other associates would just bend to seeing things the way that she did, and would just go along with it. I, however, will not do that, and it bugs the crap out of her.
While the fact that I am not allowing myself to be sucked into this IS a step in the right direction, I am having a hard time rejoicing over it because it is so tense at work. Even if I would bring up to her my thoughts on how I thought things were going, it would quickly turn into an argument, and the guys we work with don’t need that, and shouldn’t have to deal with it.
So, all I can do at this point is to pray. Pray for my heart, pray for hers, pray that God just keeps my mouth shut so that He can do the work that needs done, and prayer for the guys, that they won’t feel the tension that I feel. Pray that either the situation between her and a boss mends, or that the person above my boss will realize the problems and agree to let her go. Whichever happens, it’s going to be a waiting game.
I say this not to get pity or to get “atta-girl”, but to get it out. If I kept this in then it would be harder for me to effectively do my job.
This morning God did grant me a revelation though, as I was talking to a fellow sister-in-Christ, I felt these words come to my heart: